Denial! Denial! Me? Diabetic?

Denial! Denial! Me? Diabetic?

The first sugar test I underwent was not really planned. My ministry then offered a FREE Blood Sugar & Blood Pressure Testing. Before doing it to people who went to our ministry center, the volunteer asked me if I want my glucose level be tested. Without a doubt, I agreed. To my surprise, the reading was more than 200. The volunteer told me that am already diabetic. I refused! And I kiddingly said, "I only have high sugar level because of my eating lifestyle." The first thing I expereinced was the point of denial. It took me a year before accepting the fact that I am diabetic.

Continuing with the ministry, I have had some muscle crumps & numbness while prayer walking in the community. I really had to stop for a while and massage my muscles before I proceed. Again, I told myself, I am not diabetic, it just the effect of too much walking. Denial.

I started to realize how thirsty I am after delivering God's message on the pulpit. My mouth went sticky with dry saliva, and I begin bringing water over to ease the dryness. I watered too often that I have to wake up more than 3 times to got to the comfort room. Again I said, "I only have high blood sugar level. Am not diabetic!" Denial again.

I believe that most of diabetic patients had undergone the stage of denial. Who would want to be diagnosed as such? No one. It may come shocking and traumatic to some when the knowledge of becoming one of the carrier of the "sweet disease" has been told by your doctor. And most would deny this fact. Am one of them.

Now, after 10 years of knowing that I have high blood sugar level, may I say to everyone, I am diabetic! The Lord has taught me to depend more on Him. He showed me the way to accepting the situation and realizing that He is in control. I will be diabetic for life, but I will be a diabetic serving the Master with all of my life.

As the Word says, "And the life I now live in the flesh, I live by faith toward the Son of God, the One loving me and giving Himself over on my behalf" (Galatians 2:20).